Honesty is Honestly the Hardest thing for Me Right Now

Hiii blog. So, I'm bored, hence:
LIFE SITUATIONS

1. If you were to find out you were pregnant what would you do?
2. I’d probably be really calm and not process it, then slowly but surely it’d start to hit me and I’d freak out.
3. 2. Do you trust your friends?
4. I try to
5. 3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the person you love?
6. Depends… …
7. 4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
8. I try to-I think it helps explain things, makes sense out of them…but there are just some things that I can not see the reason for them happening, no matter how hard I look.
9. 5. Name one thing you would NOT tolerate in a relationship.
10. Cheating.
11. 6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best room mate for you?
12. I’m honestly not sure. Hannah were basically roommates last summer, and we both made it out alive…
13. 7. Can you deal with people who are too concerned with status?
14. I can tolerate them in small doses.
15. 8. Are you afraid of falling in love?
16. Terrified, actually.
17. 9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
18. Random does as random is.
19. 10. Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new guy/girl?
20. Wait, that actually happens? This makes no sense to me.
21. 11. Name one person from your friends list that you could call on.
22. If they’re considered a friend, then I can call on them and vice versa.
23. 12. From your friends list, who can you call in the middle of the night if you need to talk?
24. Probably Jalapeno. Maybe Crystal.
25. 13. What qualities do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
26. I don’t do opposite sex, buuuut, self-confidence, intelligence, sense of humor, easy-going, musically inclined…
27. 14. Fill in the blank. I will NEVER _____.
28. Change to please you.
29. 15. What are your goals in life?
30. To inspire. That’s all.
31. 16. What can you tell about a person by kissing them?
32. More than you think.
33. 17. When you get married, how would you envision your dream wedding?
34. Something simple, happiness…I don’t even know.
35. 18. If you could say just one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
36. It’s only life. Maybe. I’m not sure.
37. 19. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended period of time, name some people you would want to see around your bed?
38. My family
39. 20. How many kids do you want to have?
40. Three.
41. 21. Would you make a good parent?
42. I would like to hope so…someday.
43. 22. Where was your default pic taken?
44. ….
45. 23. . What is your middle name?
46. Don’t gots one.
47. 24. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
48. I don’t know anymore.
49. 28. Are you musical?
50. GAHHHH I wish.
51. 29. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would you change?
52. Maybe I would’ve tried harder sophomore/junior year, not let myself fall so easily for friendships and crushes with pretty words…but I’m not sure I’d actually want to change those things. Experiences shape you.
53. Shoe size:
54. 7
55. Height:
56. five feet and one inch…
57. What are you wearing right now?
58. Shorts, a Hello Kitty tank top, running shoes.
59. Righty or lefty:
Rightie
Can you make a dollar in change right now: yuppers
Best place to go for a date: The park, a coffee shop, a fair…
FAVORITES
Kind of pants: Jeans.
Number: …16
Animal: Penguins.
Sport: Basketball, more precisely, LAKERS..
Month: November/December
Juice: Appleeeeeee
HAVE YOU EVER:
Bungee Jumped? Nope.
Made yourself throw-up? *sigh*
Eaten a hotdog? Unfortunately.
Played truth or dare? Yep.
Been on a plane? Yessum
Came close to dying? Nopers
Been in a sauna? Nope
Been in a hotub? No
Swam in the ocean? Yes.
Fell asleep in school? Oh yeah
Ran away? Nope.
Cried when someone died? Kinda…
Cried in school? Not in public….
Cried on your way to school? Yeah.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? Yeah, but who cares, really.
Saved e-mails? Rarely.
Used someone? NO.
WHAT IS:
Your good luck charm? Classs ring
favorite song? "It’s only Life”-Kate Voegele. “Appreciate Your Hands”-Amy Kuney. “Maple Tree”-Angel Taylor. “Tied Together With A Smile”-Taylor Swift. “Who I am Hates Who I’ve Been”-Relient K. “Miracle”-Paramore.
HAVE YOU HAD:
Chicken pox: Yes.
Sore Throat: Hates it.
Stitches: Yupp
Broken nose: Nope.
QUESTIONS??
Who was the last person that called you?
Mah brothahhhh
Who was the last person you slow danced with?
I don’t dance.
Who makes you smile the most?
People
Who knows you the best?
Jose…and a couple of others.
Do you like filling these out?Eh.
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
Niether.
Do you like yourself?
…No.
Do you get along with your family?
Depends on the flavor of the day.
ARE YOU
Obsessive Compulsive? No?
Suicidal?
…not anymore.
FINAL QUESTIONS
Hated someone in your family?
I don’t hate, I just dislike immensely.
Gotten any awards?
Oui
Good Singer?
Ahahahahahahahahahaha.
Have a lava lamp?
Duuuuude I want one.
How many remote controls are in your house?
Well, I just counted over twenty off of the top of my head…
What was your last dream about?
Going out with Alice Cullen, then having her family drive me home in a horse-drawn carriage, and the dad giving me a bag of meat to give to my dad…idk
Scary or Funny Movie?
Iether, as long as it’s *actually* scary or funny…most movies fail at both nowadays.
Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla.
Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper?
Dr. Pepper, if I must drink one.
Skiing or Boarding?
SKIING. Forever.
Summer or winter?
I. can. Not. Choose.
II. Silver or Gold?
III. Silver.
IV. Diamond or pearl? Diiiiamonds are a giiiiirl’s best friiiiend.
V. Sprite or 7up?
VI. 7up.
VII. Coffee or tea?
VIII. Coffeecoffeecoffeeee
IX. Phone or in person?
X. In person.
XI. Are you oldest, middle or youngest?
XII. I’s the baybay.
XIII. TODAY DID YOU
XIV. 1. Talk to someone you liked? Umm, yeah? I like a lot of people. Haha.
XV. 2. Buy something? No.
XVI. 3. Get sick? No.
XVII. 4. Talked to an ex? Again, no.
XVIII. 5. Miss someone? Mmhmm.
XIX. 6. Get in a fight with someone? No, thank goodness.
XX. LAST PERSON WHO
XXI. 6. Slept in your bed? Krys, maybe?
XXII. 7. Saw you cry? Mom.
XXIII. 8. Made you cry? J. K. Rowling.
XXIV. 9. Went to the movies with? Father.
XXV. 10. Ever been in a fight with your pet? Hahaha. No.
XXVI. 11. Been to Mexico? Siiiiiiii
XXVII. 12. Been to South America? I wish.
XXVIII. 13. Do you have a crush on someone right now? Yeah, but it’s not working out between me and Ashley Greene. Super bummer.
XXIX. 14. What book are you reading now? Re-reading Harry Potter and the Deadly Hallows.
XXX. 15. Your Favorite food? Karne asada, cupcakes, muffins, cheese pizza, In-N-Out fries.
XXXI. 16. How many pillows do you sleep with on your bed? 5
XXXII.

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Things are okay. I'm going down to Hatlen on the 21st...I have to call about confirming the date tomorrow. The lady in charge scares me. Like, she's super serious and I'm very easily intimidated and just eeeek.
i have less than two weeks to spend in socal...I need to make plans with someone. Come hither, friends from afar.
I'm really excited...and so nervous, but definitely not as nervous as I thought I'd be. I don't think it's really hit me yet. When it does i'll be sure to have a full-blown freak-out.

I hate that doing this is so expensive. Dad's trying to start a career on his own now, so it's almost like my entire family's unemployed. I mean, it's nothing to complain about...we still have everything, we have extra money to spend, it's just something new for my family to actually have to live on a...budget. God, I hate how that sounds. It makes me sound like some unaware rich kid who complains when she can't get her 2109655.00 dollar costum-made shoes or something. I know tons of people have it worse off...or rather, less better off. But I also know that this puts so much stress on my dad and worries my mom-because she overanalyzes and worries about everyyyyything-and I just wish they didn't have to deal with those emotions. I feel like such an inconvenience needing them to pay pretty much everything right now...and I just hope work comes to dad so my parents can actually enjoy life and not worry, because I enjoy watching them laugh.

Obsessions:
"Mine" by Taylor Swift is all kinds of adorable.
Ashley Greene...is a goddess.
In-N-Out fries: We went there for brunch this past Sunday, and I gained a whole new appreciation for those things.
We are the Fallen: Seriously dudes, check. them. out. I saw them live a couple of weeks ago...and Carly's voice? There are no words. It's just ridiculous. Girl can saaaang. Girl's also super gorgeous with the best accent ever, but that's irrelevant.

Later, bloggity blog.

"...But you see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You are everything to me
And this is why I have to leave..."

Defying Gravity

It's about 11am. It's super sunny and pretty outside, and I'd much rather be out there right now. The only downfall to this weather is the huge amount of bugs that come out...so gross.
My brother's on the treadmill and I'm impatiently waiting for him to finish so i can use it.
Mom and I spent the 4th of July day at the mall, buying clothes I still insist I do not need. (Other than the Paramore shirt, that i definitely needed.) Afterwords we watched Remember Me. It was good because it was so...real. Sad, but so good. And I could tollerate Robert Patinson in this, which wasa plus. We climbed on the roof to watch fireworks when it got dark. We could've just watched from our backyard on lawn chairs like normal people, but I actually wanted to see them and the roof wasn't blocked by trees and whatnot, so I ignored the fact that I could potentially fall and end up severely broken and just chilled...it wasn't bad. I think my dog's scarred for life, but it's okay.

I get to see Carly in a couple of weeks, and that day needs to get here now. Stoked to hear her amazing accent in person. (That's weird...nvm. but seriously) I've never heard of any of the other bands playing, and I haven't looked at the ticket prices because I'm scared, but I'll make it happen.
Volunteering with the animals has been fun, even though I haven't gotten to do much yet.

What I'm obsessing over today may include...
"Adore" by Paramore: I don't even think this needs an explanation LIsten to it and tell me it's not amazing.
Pretzel bites: because they are delish. Even though I find myself wiping off 90% of the sugar while my mom complains that that's the best part.

Uh, the Bachelorette's on tonight...ahem, anyhow. gonna go hurry up my brother. Hope you all have amazing Mondays:)

“I don’t mean to run
But every time you come around
I feel more alive than ever
And I guess it’s too much
Maybe we’re too young
And I don’t even know what’s real
But I know I’ve never wanted anything so bad
I’ve never wanted anyone so bad…”

You've got a Piece of me, And Honestly...

Hi again. *waves*
So I'm currently watching one of these ghost shows...and trying to not listen, because I'm already freaking out. Kid ghosts are just...AHHH. I swear I just heard something behind me.

...you think i'm kidding but i'm not.

Anywho, today was alright. Went to lunch with Krys, came home, watched countless videos from the AI tour, then skyped with Arielle for a few...hours. I'm so sad she's leaving for so long. She's one of the people i've grown closest too, and I'll miss that cutie. Seriously, I think we're unbiological sisters. (She's the littler one, of course.)
I ate a fudgecicle (SP?) for the first time today, and probably the last. Way too chocolatey. I need to get my nails done. They are insanely chipped.
So, you know when there's someone you were into for a long time, and then you started to get over said person...and then idk, they kind of re-entered your life, around the same time that they were in your life the previous year, and you start to miss them and stuff? No, it's just me? Cool. Mkay. I don't know if it's just nostalgia, wanting things to be like they were a year ago, or if I'd even be able to let myself fall for said person again, or if they'd even be interested...ughh i de kay. (Falling Slowly just came on iTunes and I'm not sure what it's trying to tell me, but I do not approve. And no, I'm not trying to drown out the ghost story by turning on iTunes. I am not afraid. Not at all. Not. No--omg, what was that?)

Currently trying to decide whether I want to see We are the Fallen or Katelyn this month...if I can't find someone to go to Katelyn's show with, I'll probably end up just watching WATF, which is a bummer, cause I'm dying to see curly too. I've also decided that I'm slowly becoming obsessed with Katie Stevens, who I non-subtly couldn't stand during the actual competition. Sigh. It's easy for people to win me over, i guess.

A new ghost story is starting, I'm actually gonna try to watch. Peace.

I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Iether way I found out
I'm nothing without you.