Saturday, November 13, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Honesty is Honestly the Hardest thing for Me Right Now
Hiii blog. So, I'm bored, hence:
LIFE SITUATIONS
1. If you were to find out you were pregnant what would you do?
2. I’d probably be really calm and not process it, then slowly but surely it’d start to hit me and I’d freak out.
3. 2. Do you trust your friends?
4. I try to
5. 3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the person you love?
6. Depends… …
7. 4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
8. I try to-I think it helps explain things, makes sense out of them…but there are just some things that I can not see the reason for them happening, no matter how hard I look.
9. 5. Name one thing you would NOT tolerate in a relationship.
10. Cheating.
11. 6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best room mate for you?
12. I’m honestly not sure. Hannah were basically roommates last summer, and we both made it out alive…
13. 7. Can you deal with people who are too concerned with status?
14. I can tolerate them in small doses.
15. 8. Are you afraid of falling in love?
16. Terrified, actually.
17. 9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
18. Random does as random is.
19. 10. Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new guy/girl?
20. Wait, that actually happens? This makes no sense to me.
21. 11. Name one person from your friends list that you could call on.
22. If they’re considered a friend, then I can call on them and vice versa.
23. 12. From your friends list, who can you call in the middle of the night if you need to talk?
24. Probably Jalapeno. Maybe Crystal.
25. 13. What qualities do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
26. I don’t do opposite sex, buuuut, self-confidence, intelligence, sense of humor, easy-going, musically inclined…
27. 14. Fill in the blank. I will NEVER _____.
28. Change to please you.
29. 15. What are your goals in life?
30. To inspire. That’s all.
31. 16. What can you tell about a person by kissing them?
32. More than you think.
33. 17. When you get married, how would you envision your dream wedding?
34. Something simple, happiness…I don’t even know.
35. 18. If you could say just one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
36. It’s only life. Maybe. I’m not sure.
37. 19. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended period of time, name some people you would want to see around your bed?
38. My family
39. 20. How many kids do you want to have?
40. Three.
41. 21. Would you make a good parent?
42. I would like to hope so…someday.
43. 22. Where was your default pic taken?
44. ….
45. 23. . What is your middle name?
46. Don’t gots one.
47. 24. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
48. I don’t know anymore.
49. 28. Are you musical?
50. GAHHHH I wish.
51. 29. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would you change?
52. Maybe I would’ve tried harder sophomore/junior year, not let myself fall so easily for friendships and crushes with pretty words…but I’m not sure I’d actually want to change those things. Experiences shape you.
53. Shoe size:
54. 7
55. Height:
56. five feet and one inch…
57. What are you wearing right now?
58. Shorts, a Hello Kitty tank top, running shoes.
59. Righty or lefty:
Rightie
Can you make a dollar in change right now: yuppers
Best place to go for a date: The park, a coffee shop, a fair…
FAVORITES
Kind of pants: Jeans.
Number: …16
Animal: Penguins.
Sport: Basketball, more precisely, LAKERS..
Month: November/December
Juice: Appleeeeeee
HAVE YOU EVER:
Bungee Jumped? Nope.
Made yourself throw-up? *sigh*
Eaten a hotdog? Unfortunately.
Played truth or dare? Yep.
Been on a plane? Yessum
Came close to dying? Nopers
Been in a sauna? Nope
Been in a hotub? No
Swam in the ocean? Yes.
Fell asleep in school? Oh yeah
Ran away? Nope.
Cried when someone died? Kinda…
Cried in school? Not in public….
Cried on your way to school? Yeah.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? Yeah, but who cares, really.
Saved e-mails? Rarely.
Used someone? NO.
WHAT IS:
Your good luck charm? Classs ring
favorite song? "It’s only Life”-Kate Voegele. “Appreciate Your Hands”-Amy Kuney. “Maple Tree”-Angel Taylor. “Tied Together With A Smile”-Taylor Swift. “Who I am Hates Who I’ve Been”-Relient K. “Miracle”-Paramore.
HAVE YOU HAD:
Chicken pox: Yes.
Sore Throat: Hates it.
Stitches: Yupp
Broken nose: Nope.
QUESTIONS??
Who was the last person that called you?
Mah brothahhhh
Who was the last person you slow danced with?
I don’t dance.
Who makes you smile the most?
People
Who knows you the best?
Jose…and a couple of others.
Do you like filling these out?Eh.
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
Niether.
Do you like yourself?
…No.
Do you get along with your family?
Depends on the flavor of the day.
ARE YOU
Obsessive Compulsive? No?
Suicidal?
…not anymore.
FINAL QUESTIONS
Hated someone in your family?
I don’t hate, I just dislike immensely.
Gotten any awards?
Oui
Good Singer?
Ahahahahahahahahahaha.
Have a lava lamp?
Duuuuude I want one.
How many remote controls are in your house?
Well, I just counted over twenty off of the top of my head…
What was your last dream about?
Going out with Alice Cullen, then having her family drive me home in a horse-drawn carriage, and the dad giving me a bag of meat to give to my dad…idk
Scary or Funny Movie?
Iether, as long as it’s *actually* scary or funny…most movies fail at both nowadays.
Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla.
Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper?
Dr. Pepper, if I must drink one.
Skiing or Boarding?
SKIING. Forever.
Summer or winter?
I. can. Not. Choose.
II. Silver or Gold?
III. Silver.
IV. Diamond or pearl? Diiiiamonds are a giiiiirl’s best friiiiend.
V. Sprite or 7up?
VI. 7up.
VII. Coffee or tea?
VIII. Coffeecoffeecoffeeee
IX. Phone or in person?
X. In person.
XI. Are you oldest, middle or youngest?
XII. I’s the baybay.
XIII. TODAY DID YOU
XIV. 1. Talk to someone you liked? Umm, yeah? I like a lot of people. Haha.
XV. 2. Buy something? No.
XVI. 3. Get sick? No.
XVII. 4. Talked to an ex? Again, no.
XVIII. 5. Miss someone? Mmhmm.
XIX. 6. Get in a fight with someone? No, thank goodness.
XX. LAST PERSON WHO
XXI. 6. Slept in your bed? Krys, maybe?
XXII. 7. Saw you cry? Mom.
XXIII. 8. Made you cry? J. K. Rowling.
XXIV. 9. Went to the movies with? Father.
XXV. 10. Ever been in a fight with your pet? Hahaha. No.
XXVI. 11. Been to Mexico? Siiiiiiii
XXVII. 12. Been to South America? I wish.
XXVIII. 13. Do you have a crush on someone right now? Yeah, but it’s not working out between me and Ashley Greene. Super bummer.
XXIX. 14. What book are you reading now? Re-reading Harry Potter and the Deadly Hallows.
XXX. 15. Your Favorite food? Karne asada, cupcakes, muffins, cheese pizza, In-N-Out fries.
XXXI. 16. How many pillows do you sleep with on your bed? 5
XXXII.
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Things are okay. I'm going down to Hatlen on the 21st...I have to call about confirming the date tomorrow. The lady in charge scares me. Like, she's super serious and I'm very easily intimidated and just eeeek.
i have less than two weeks to spend in socal...I need to make plans with someone. Come hither, friends from afar.
I'm really excited...and so nervous, but definitely not as nervous as I thought I'd be. I don't think it's really hit me yet. When it does i'll be sure to have a full-blown freak-out.
I hate that doing this is so expensive. Dad's trying to start a career on his own now, so it's almost like my entire family's unemployed. I mean, it's nothing to complain about...we still have everything, we have extra money to spend, it's just something new for my family to actually have to live on a...budget. God, I hate how that sounds. It makes me sound like some unaware rich kid who complains when she can't get her 2109655.00 dollar costum-made shoes or something. I know tons of people have it worse off...or rather, less better off. But I also know that this puts so much stress on my dad and worries my mom-because she overanalyzes and worries about everyyyyything-and I just wish they didn't have to deal with those emotions. I feel like such an inconvenience needing them to pay pretty much everything right now...and I just hope work comes to dad so my parents can actually enjoy life and not worry, because I enjoy watching them laugh.
Obsessions:
"Mine" by Taylor Swift is all kinds of adorable.
Ashley Greene...is a goddess.
In-N-Out fries: We went there for brunch this past Sunday, and I gained a whole new appreciation for those things.
We are the Fallen: Seriously dudes, check. them. out. I saw them live a couple of weeks ago...and Carly's voice? There are no words. It's just ridiculous. Girl can saaaang. Girl's also super gorgeous with the best accent ever, but that's irrelevant.
Later, bloggity blog.
"...But you see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You are everything to me
And this is why I have to leave..."
LIFE SITUATIONS
1. If you were to find out you were pregnant what would you do?
2. I’d probably be really calm and not process it, then slowly but surely it’d start to hit me and I’d freak out.
3. 2. Do you trust your friends?
4. I try to
5. 3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the person you love?
6. Depends… …
7. 4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
8. I try to-I think it helps explain things, makes sense out of them…but there are just some things that I can not see the reason for them happening, no matter how hard I look.
9. 5. Name one thing you would NOT tolerate in a relationship.
10. Cheating.
11. 6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best room mate for you?
12. I’m honestly not sure. Hannah were basically roommates last summer, and we both made it out alive…
13. 7. Can you deal with people who are too concerned with status?
14. I can tolerate them in small doses.
15. 8. Are you afraid of falling in love?
16. Terrified, actually.
17. 9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
18. Random does as random is.
19. 10. Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new guy/girl?
20. Wait, that actually happens? This makes no sense to me.
21. 11. Name one person from your friends list that you could call on.
22. If they’re considered a friend, then I can call on them and vice versa.
23. 12. From your friends list, who can you call in the middle of the night if you need to talk?
24. Probably Jalapeno. Maybe Crystal.
25. 13. What qualities do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
26. I don’t do opposite sex, buuuut, self-confidence, intelligence, sense of humor, easy-going, musically inclined…
27. 14. Fill in the blank. I will NEVER _____.
28. Change to please you.
29. 15. What are your goals in life?
30. To inspire. That’s all.
31. 16. What can you tell about a person by kissing them?
32. More than you think.
33. 17. When you get married, how would you envision your dream wedding?
34. Something simple, happiness…I don’t even know.
35. 18. If you could say just one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
36. It’s only life. Maybe. I’m not sure.
37. 19. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended period of time, name some people you would want to see around your bed?
38. My family
39. 20. How many kids do you want to have?
40. Three.
41. 21. Would you make a good parent?
42. I would like to hope so…someday.
43. 22. Where was your default pic taken?
44. ….
45. 23. . What is your middle name?
46. Don’t gots one.
47. 24. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
48. I don’t know anymore.
49. 28. Are you musical?
50. GAHHHH I wish.
51. 29. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would you change?
52. Maybe I would’ve tried harder sophomore/junior year, not let myself fall so easily for friendships and crushes with pretty words…but I’m not sure I’d actually want to change those things. Experiences shape you.
53. Shoe size:
54. 7
55. Height:
56. five feet and one inch…
57. What are you wearing right now?
58. Shorts, a Hello Kitty tank top, running shoes.
59. Righty or lefty:
Rightie
Can you make a dollar in change right now: yuppers
Best place to go for a date: The park, a coffee shop, a fair…
FAVORITES
Kind of pants: Jeans.
Number: …16
Animal: Penguins.
Sport: Basketball, more precisely, LAKERS..
Month: November/December
Juice: Appleeeeeee
HAVE YOU EVER:
Bungee Jumped? Nope.
Made yourself throw-up? *sigh*
Eaten a hotdog? Unfortunately.
Played truth or dare? Yep.
Been on a plane? Yessum
Came close to dying? Nopers
Been in a sauna? Nope
Been in a hotub? No
Swam in the ocean? Yes.
Fell asleep in school? Oh yeah
Ran away? Nope.
Cried when someone died? Kinda…
Cried in school? Not in public….
Cried on your way to school? Yeah.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? Yeah, but who cares, really.
Saved e-mails? Rarely.
Used someone? NO.
WHAT IS:
Your good luck charm? Classs ring
favorite song? "It’s only Life”-Kate Voegele. “Appreciate Your Hands”-Amy Kuney. “Maple Tree”-Angel Taylor. “Tied Together With A Smile”-Taylor Swift. “Who I am Hates Who I’ve Been”-Relient K. “Miracle”-Paramore.
HAVE YOU HAD:
Chicken pox: Yes.
Sore Throat: Hates it.
Stitches: Yupp
Broken nose: Nope.
QUESTIONS??
Who was the last person that called you?
Mah brothahhhh
Who was the last person you slow danced with?
I don’t dance.
Who makes you smile the most?
People
Who knows you the best?
Jose…and a couple of others.
Do you like filling these out?Eh.
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
Niether.
Do you like yourself?
…No.
Do you get along with your family?
Depends on the flavor of the day.
ARE YOU
Obsessive Compulsive? No?
Suicidal?
…not anymore.
FINAL QUESTIONS
Hated someone in your family?
I don’t hate, I just dislike immensely.
Gotten any awards?
Oui
Good Singer?
Ahahahahahahahahahaha.
Have a lava lamp?
Duuuuude I want one.
How many remote controls are in your house?
Well, I just counted over twenty off of the top of my head…
What was your last dream about?
Going out with Alice Cullen, then having her family drive me home in a horse-drawn carriage, and the dad giving me a bag of meat to give to my dad…idk
Scary or Funny Movie?
Iether, as long as it’s *actually* scary or funny…most movies fail at both nowadays.
Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla.
Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper?
Dr. Pepper, if I must drink one.
Skiing or Boarding?
SKIING. Forever.
Summer or winter?
I. can. Not. Choose.
II. Silver or Gold?
III. Silver.
IV. Diamond or pearl? Diiiiamonds are a giiiiirl’s best friiiiend.
V. Sprite or 7up?
VI. 7up.
VII. Coffee or tea?
VIII. Coffeecoffeecoffeeee
IX. Phone or in person?
X. In person.
XI. Are you oldest, middle or youngest?
XII. I’s the baybay.
XIII. TODAY DID YOU
XIV. 1. Talk to someone you liked? Umm, yeah? I like a lot of people. Haha.
XV. 2. Buy something? No.
XVI. 3. Get sick? No.
XVII. 4. Talked to an ex? Again, no.
XVIII. 5. Miss someone? Mmhmm.
XIX. 6. Get in a fight with someone? No, thank goodness.
XX. LAST PERSON WHO
XXI. 6. Slept in your bed? Krys, maybe?
XXII. 7. Saw you cry? Mom.
XXIII. 8. Made you cry? J. K. Rowling.
XXIV. 9. Went to the movies with? Father.
XXV. 10. Ever been in a fight with your pet? Hahaha. No.
XXVI. 11. Been to Mexico? Siiiiiiii
XXVII. 12. Been to South America? I wish.
XXVIII. 13. Do you have a crush on someone right now? Yeah, but it’s not working out between me and Ashley Greene. Super bummer.
XXIX. 14. What book are you reading now? Re-reading Harry Potter and the Deadly Hallows.
XXX. 15. Your Favorite food? Karne asada, cupcakes, muffins, cheese pizza, In-N-Out fries.
XXXI. 16. How many pillows do you sleep with on your bed? 5
XXXII.
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Things are okay. I'm going down to Hatlen on the 21st...I have to call about confirming the date tomorrow. The lady in charge scares me. Like, she's super serious and I'm very easily intimidated and just eeeek.
i have less than two weeks to spend in socal...I need to make plans with someone. Come hither, friends from afar.
I'm really excited...and so nervous, but definitely not as nervous as I thought I'd be. I don't think it's really hit me yet. When it does i'll be sure to have a full-blown freak-out.
I hate that doing this is so expensive. Dad's trying to start a career on his own now, so it's almost like my entire family's unemployed. I mean, it's nothing to complain about...we still have everything, we have extra money to spend, it's just something new for my family to actually have to live on a...budget. God, I hate how that sounds. It makes me sound like some unaware rich kid who complains when she can't get her 2109655.00 dollar costum-made shoes or something. I know tons of people have it worse off...or rather, less better off. But I also know that this puts so much stress on my dad and worries my mom-because she overanalyzes and worries about everyyyyything-and I just wish they didn't have to deal with those emotions. I feel like such an inconvenience needing them to pay pretty much everything right now...and I just hope work comes to dad so my parents can actually enjoy life and not worry, because I enjoy watching them laugh.
Obsessions:
"Mine" by Taylor Swift is all kinds of adorable.
Ashley Greene...is a goddess.
In-N-Out fries: We went there for brunch this past Sunday, and I gained a whole new appreciation for those things.
We are the Fallen: Seriously dudes, check. them. out. I saw them live a couple of weeks ago...and Carly's voice? There are no words. It's just ridiculous. Girl can saaaang. Girl's also super gorgeous with the best accent ever, but that's irrelevant.
Later, bloggity blog.
"...But you see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You are everything to me
And this is why I have to leave..."
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Everybody's Gotta Breathe Somehow
Hi blog. So, I'm 18 now, I guess that's cool and worth noting...kinda, not really.
Let me take a few minutes to do one of my 'OMG my mother sucks and my life is just sooo FML because I'm a dramatic teen at heart' posts.
My mom likes to go on long (I'm talking 20 minutes minimum) rant-lectures on how I'm so quiet and unlikable and therefore have no friends and zero social life. She likes to point out how if I were prettier or cared what other people thought, I'd have tonssss of people to hang out with.
Then, whenever people ask me to hang out with them, I tell her and she acts all confused 'Oh, why are they asking you to do that?' Then she goes on about how they're probably just inviting me out because they feel bad for me or are just trying to embarrass me. Depending on what we're doing, she'll find a way to turn it into 'well you can't do that because you're blind and _____'. If nothing else works, she'll start pointing out how my friends are suuuuch bad influences because they, IDK, have piercings, tattoos...boyfriends, anything that she sees unfit. I told her yesterday that I planned on getting a nose piercing. She informed me that 'only disgusting street girls or lesbians get nose piercings...do you want people to think of you like that?'
I know she doesn't do these things to hurt/offend me, that she thinks she's protecting me or...something, and I try not to let them get to me, but sometimes it just gets to be too much-like today-a I just feel like screaming. I guess I could go out or do whatever without her consent-I mean, she never flatout says 'no', and my dad almost expects me to go out, but...I just hate having her mad at me. She has this way of making me feel like I disappointed her, and I hate that feeling and hurting her and...Sigh. I dunno.
To cancel on M or not...
Aaaand so ends rant.
I think it's time for a jog.
Let me take a few minutes to do one of my 'OMG my mother sucks and my life is just sooo FML because I'm a dramatic teen at heart' posts.
My mom likes to go on long (I'm talking 20 minutes minimum) rant-lectures on how I'm so quiet and unlikable and therefore have no friends and zero social life. She likes to point out how if I were prettier or cared what other people thought, I'd have tonssss of people to hang out with.
Then, whenever people ask me to hang out with them, I tell her and she acts all confused 'Oh, why are they asking you to do that?' Then she goes on about how they're probably just inviting me out because they feel bad for me or are just trying to embarrass me. Depending on what we're doing, she'll find a way to turn it into 'well you can't do that because you're blind and _____'. If nothing else works, she'll start pointing out how my friends are suuuuch bad influences because they, IDK, have piercings, tattoos...boyfriends, anything that she sees unfit. I told her yesterday that I planned on getting a nose piercing. She informed me that 'only disgusting street girls or lesbians get nose piercings...do you want people to think of you like that?'
I know she doesn't do these things to hurt/offend me, that she thinks she's protecting me or...something, and I try not to let them get to me, but sometimes it just gets to be too much-like today-a I just feel like screaming. I guess I could go out or do whatever without her consent-I mean, she never flatout says 'no', and my dad almost expects me to go out, but...I just hate having her mad at me. She has this way of making me feel like I disappointed her, and I hate that feeling and hurting her and...Sigh. I dunno.
To cancel on M or not...
Aaaand so ends rant.
I think it's time for a jog.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Many the Miles
All these day sfeel like a blur, just passing by one after the other without anything really standing out, without me really doing anything worth telling. That's not necessarily a bad thing, I just hope eventually they become more...eventful.
Well, they will in the fall, when I go off to Hattlan/school, but that's so far off. Idk, I kind of need to be doing something. I feel so unproductive...and as soon as I start doing something, I know i'll probably complain about how much I have to do. I'm strange.
I've decided that trying to figure out my own emotions is pretty pointless, and I've noticed I don't care as m uch as I used too. Though, this all does make for some pretty awesome songs that I'm actually proud of writing.
I feel like taking a long walk on the beach, or a boat ride, or a midnight stroll, or something of that genre. Midnight stroll sounds most appealing at the moment, but that may be because it's umm, midnight.
I have to get up unusually early to spend the day with Krys tomorrow. I'm excited...and nervous. I almost never get to see her, and there's this whole bff then not talking for 3 months that we've got going on. We're just so different, and i guess that's what balances out, makes us work...but idk. She's only there halftime and it's become so hard to trust her...same old story I've been telling for the past 16 months. But I don't want to let go of this friendship.
Idol fanfics are my current addiction: so good, so horrible, wonderfully horrible. Guilty pleasure, for sure. Creepy, creepy guilty pleasure...much like all ffs, in a way.
Pretzel M&Ms are pretty amazing too. I think I like themmore than peanut M&Ms, and you can be sure that was hard to admit.
"Say Goodbye"--Katharine McPhee is. completely. beautiful. The metaphors and the emotion and the story and her voice...just, AHHH.
But you are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing.
Well, they will in the fall, when I go off to Hattlan/school, but that's so far off. Idk, I kind of need to be doing something. I feel so unproductive...and as soon as I start doing something, I know i'll probably complain about how much I have to do. I'm strange.
I've decided that trying to figure out my own emotions is pretty pointless, and I've noticed I don't care as m uch as I used too. Though, this all does make for some pretty awesome songs that I'm actually proud of writing.
I feel like taking a long walk on the beach, or a boat ride, or a midnight stroll, or something of that genre. Midnight stroll sounds most appealing at the moment, but that may be because it's umm, midnight.
I have to get up unusually early to spend the day with Krys tomorrow. I'm excited...and nervous. I almost never get to see her, and there's this whole bff then not talking for 3 months that we've got going on. We're just so different, and i guess that's what balances out, makes us work...but idk. She's only there halftime and it's become so hard to trust her...same old story I've been telling for the past 16 months. But I don't want to let go of this friendship.
Idol fanfics are my current addiction: so good, so horrible, wonderfully horrible. Guilty pleasure, for sure. Creepy, creepy guilty pleasure...much like all ffs, in a way.
Pretzel M&Ms are pretty amazing too. I think I like themmore than peanut M&Ms, and you can be sure that was hard to admit.
"Say Goodbye"--Katharine McPhee is. completely. beautiful. The metaphors and the emotion and the story and her voice...just, AHHH.
But you are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Defying Gravity
It's about 11am. It's super sunny and pretty outside, and I'd much rather be out there right now. The only downfall to this weather is the huge amount of bugs that come out...so gross.
My brother's on the treadmill and I'm impatiently waiting for him to finish so i can use it.
Mom and I spent the 4th of July day at the mall, buying clothes I still insist I do not need. (Other than the Paramore shirt, that i definitely needed.) Afterwords we watched Remember Me. It was good because it was so...real. Sad, but so good. And I could tollerate Robert Patinson in this, which wasa plus. We climbed on the roof to watch fireworks when it got dark. We could've just watched from our backyard on lawn chairs like normal people, but I actually wanted to see them and the roof wasn't blocked by trees and whatnot, so I ignored the fact that I could potentially fall and end up severely broken and just chilled...it wasn't bad. I think my dog's scarred for life, but it's okay.
I get to see Carly in a couple of weeks, and that day needs to get here now. Stoked to hear her amazing accent in person. (That's weird...nvm. but seriously) I've never heard of any of the other bands playing, and I haven't looked at the ticket prices because I'm scared, but I'll make it happen.
Volunteering with the animals has been fun, even though I haven't gotten to do much yet.
What I'm obsessing over today may include...
"Adore" by Paramore: I don't even think this needs an explanation LIsten to it and tell me it's not amazing.
Pretzel bites: because they are delish. Even though I find myself wiping off 90% of the sugar while my mom complains that that's the best part.
Uh, the Bachelorette's on tonight...ahem, anyhow. gonna go hurry up my brother. Hope you all have amazing Mondays:)
“I don’t mean to run
But every time you come around
I feel more alive than ever
And I guess it’s too much
Maybe we’re too young
And I don’t even know what’s real
But I know I’ve never wanted anything so bad
I’ve never wanted anyone so bad…”
My brother's on the treadmill and I'm impatiently waiting for him to finish so i can use it.
Mom and I spent the 4th of July day at the mall, buying clothes I still insist I do not need. (Other than the Paramore shirt, that i definitely needed.) Afterwords we watched Remember Me. It was good because it was so...real. Sad, but so good. And I could tollerate Robert Patinson in this, which wasa plus. We climbed on the roof to watch fireworks when it got dark. We could've just watched from our backyard on lawn chairs like normal people, but I actually wanted to see them and the roof wasn't blocked by trees and whatnot, so I ignored the fact that I could potentially fall and end up severely broken and just chilled...it wasn't bad. I think my dog's scarred for life, but it's okay.
I get to see Carly in a couple of weeks, and that day needs to get here now. Stoked to hear her amazing accent in person. (That's weird...nvm. but seriously) I've never heard of any of the other bands playing, and I haven't looked at the ticket prices because I'm scared, but I'll make it happen.
Volunteering with the animals has been fun, even though I haven't gotten to do much yet.
What I'm obsessing over today may include...
"Adore" by Paramore: I don't even think this needs an explanation LIsten to it and tell me it's not amazing.
Pretzel bites: because they are delish. Even though I find myself wiping off 90% of the sugar while my mom complains that that's the best part.
Uh, the Bachelorette's on tonight...ahem, anyhow. gonna go hurry up my brother. Hope you all have amazing Mondays:)
“I don’t mean to run
But every time you come around
I feel more alive than ever
And I guess it’s too much
Maybe we’re too young
And I don’t even know what’s real
But I know I’ve never wanted anything so bad
I’ve never wanted anyone so bad…”
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Who Cares if you Disagree?
Hi. It's 1:30am. I'm wide awake. This situation is a most annoying one when I have to get up early/am superduper bored/no freakin' one is still awake for me to talk (rant annoy) to.
Today was strange. It's funny how sleeping can really clear up your thoughts...make you more content with things, situations. I'm kind of over the angst whatever that took me over last night after I started thinking hardcore about relationships and what I missed and whatnot. Whatever happens happens, and I think I'll just leave it at that.
Family drama has progressed as expected, and alcohol is annoying when it mixes with my dad and moody mother. In other words, brunch tomorrow is gonna suck, assuming we even go out for it. I don't even know, and I really do try not to care. I don't enjoy negative angry people. They bring out the negative annoying fmlmylifesucksraaaaaawr side in me. I figure, the more I can avoid feeling that way, the better. (Though it does help when I wanna write a new poem or song...which reminds me of the guitar I have yet to buy. Those 300 dolars are just waiting, waiting to be spent....it's sad, really. They haven't been able to live out their mission of providing me with a new musical instrument...)
Some Disney show is on in the background(i think it's that sweetlife one where they live on the boat...?) *changes it to Fresh Prince* Ah, that's better.
I was hoping that writing out these incredibly boring things would somehow bore me into sleepiness...i think i'm more awake than before. I've been reading Glee fanfics for the past hour, I don't even...so bored.
Obsessions?
"King of Anything": which, really, has been an obsession since the day it was released. Sarah is a genious, her voice, the lyrics, everything. I love her wording, her bluntness, the way it's so humorous yet can be taken seriously...seriously, I want her writing skill.
Wicked: Which I have been inloveloveloveeee with since I was 13, when our choir sang "For Good" for a music festival. I went to one of the shows last year and it was basically one of the best things I've ever gotten to do. I need a repeat of that. (Although the fact that I'll never get to see it with the original cast still makes me sad...)
This blog is pointless, so pointless. (to publish or not to publish...hmm)
Anyways, gonna go watch this show and read more Glee and bore myself into sleep somehow. HAPPY FOURTH!
Roses are dry, violets are black
And I can be cruel, just like you
Tables have turned, can't help but laugh
Saying we're through, just like you.
Today was strange. It's funny how sleeping can really clear up your thoughts...make you more content with things, situations. I'm kind of over the angst whatever that took me over last night after I started thinking hardcore about relationships and what I missed and whatnot. Whatever happens happens, and I think I'll just leave it at that.
Family drama has progressed as expected, and alcohol is annoying when it mixes with my dad and moody mother. In other words, brunch tomorrow is gonna suck, assuming we even go out for it. I don't even know, and I really do try not to care. I don't enjoy negative angry people. They bring out the negative annoying fmlmylifesucksraaaaaawr side in me. I figure, the more I can avoid feeling that way, the better. (Though it does help when I wanna write a new poem or song...which reminds me of the guitar I have yet to buy. Those 300 dolars are just waiting, waiting to be spent....it's sad, really. They haven't been able to live out their mission of providing me with a new musical instrument...)
Some Disney show is on in the background(i think it's that sweetlife one where they live on the boat...?) *changes it to Fresh Prince* Ah, that's better.
I was hoping that writing out these incredibly boring things would somehow bore me into sleepiness...i think i'm more awake than before. I've been reading Glee fanfics for the past hour, I don't even...so bored.
Obsessions?
"King of Anything": which, really, has been an obsession since the day it was released. Sarah is a genious, her voice, the lyrics, everything. I love her wording, her bluntness, the way it's so humorous yet can be taken seriously...seriously, I want her writing skill.
Wicked: Which I have been inloveloveloveeee with since I was 13, when our choir sang "For Good" for a music festival. I went to one of the shows last year and it was basically one of the best things I've ever gotten to do. I need a repeat of that. (Although the fact that I'll never get to see it with the original cast still makes me sad...)
This blog is pointless, so pointless. (to publish or not to publish...hmm)
Anyways, gonna go watch this show and read more Glee and bore myself into sleep somehow. HAPPY FOURTH!
Roses are dry, violets are black
And I can be cruel, just like you
Tables have turned, can't help but laugh
Saying we're through, just like you.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
And When the World Treats you Way too Fairly
"I’m strong on the strong, not all the way through. I can’t cry in public, I don’t speak my mind, I start laughing when I want to cry, I spend most of my
days waiting for those who end up letting me go too easily. I don’t know who I am. I’m cryptic, and I read too far into things. I cry for no reason, I
get randomly sad. I protect those around me and I leave myself wide open to be hurt. I’m weak. My best friend is my iPod. I’m afraid. I’m too curious.
I can’t keep my mouth shut about things that have to do with who I like, but I can’t allow myself to say what’s really on my mind. I’m easy to hurt, and
when I trust someone enough to let them in, they hurt me more than those who I feel like would hurt me. I miss people too much, and I hate people too much,
and I also love people too much. I never trust anyone completely.
And I’m really not as great as people think I am and I’ll just end up disappointing you in the future."
...Okay, so I'm overdosing on blog posts today (tonight), but this quote appeared on my tumblr dash, and it just pinpointed the only thing that's been bugging me to a tee.
I'm happy, very happy, but...
I don't know, I feel like this undisclosed person basically wrote out how I feel on a daily basis when it comes to interacting with other people. It isn't who I want to be, but it's hard to break free from it. It's scary to let your guard down. It's scary to speak your mind and take responsibility for the aftermath. It's scary to cry and look vulnerable. It's terrifying to get attached to other people, to submerge yourself in their world, because...for me, I'malways so afraid of hurting those I care about. And yet, I feel like I do it regardless.
....I don't know, it's late. I have too much time to think.
Where's your gabbble,
Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life.
days waiting for those who end up letting me go too easily. I don’t know who I am. I’m cryptic, and I read too far into things. I cry for no reason, I
get randomly sad. I protect those around me and I leave myself wide open to be hurt. I’m weak. My best friend is my iPod. I’m afraid. I’m too curious.
I can’t keep my mouth shut about things that have to do with who I like, but I can’t allow myself to say what’s really on my mind. I’m easy to hurt, and
when I trust someone enough to let them in, they hurt me more than those who I feel like would hurt me. I miss people too much, and I hate people too much,
and I also love people too much. I never trust anyone completely.
And I’m really not as great as people think I am and I’ll just end up disappointing you in the future."
...Okay, so I'm overdosing on blog posts today (tonight), but this quote appeared on my tumblr dash, and it just pinpointed the only thing that's been bugging me to a tee.
I'm happy, very happy, but...
I don't know, I feel like this undisclosed person basically wrote out how I feel on a daily basis when it comes to interacting with other people. It isn't who I want to be, but it's hard to break free from it. It's scary to let your guard down. It's scary to speak your mind and take responsibility for the aftermath. It's scary to cry and look vulnerable. It's terrifying to get attached to other people, to submerge yourself in their world, because...for me, I'malways so afraid of hurting those I care about. And yet, I feel like I do it regardless.
....I don't know, it's late. I have too much time to think.
Where's your gabbble,
Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life.
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